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... And then remember the Dick-and-Jane books and the first word you

learned - the biggest word of all - LOOK.”

― Robert Fulghum, All I Really Need to Know I Learned in Kindergarten

I remember my father saying that to me: Look.  I had been going through pictures - pictures I had taken - and discarded one that appeared to be a dead bush.  No leaves, blah-brown branches in a tangle. But "look" he said, and so I did, and hidden in that mass of branches I found a sparrow huddling against the wind.  Look.

I  was hooked.  Finding that sparrow, a bird a hundred other people had passed by, felt like a treasure hunt.  Discovering these minute worlds, in the ice, the leaves, the pond has been an adventure that has taught me to appreciate tiny things that are often unseen.

In 2008, my family and I moved to 10 rural acres in Missouri.  After 20 years of working with crime victims, I was ready for something else, for something that fed my soul.  So I turned back to my fascination with photography, and began working on this site.  

Then life happened:  About 5 years ago, I started having health issues.  A pace-maker,   seizures,  2 episodes in comas, and I was no longer myself.  I could not bring up the most simple of words, was easily confused, had almost no short-term memory.  I had to walk with a walker, and was no longer allowed to drive.  I could not understand anything I read.  I did not recognize myself, and I surely was not  the starry-eyed woman who found wonder everywhere.  Not only did I have no interest in photography, I could not figure out how to use my camera or  software.  

It has been a long road.  Out- of -state experts, a variety of meds, experimental treatments, endless therapies, in rehab to the point where I know all the staff.  The  medical staff who have helped me through this have my unending appreciation and thanks.  I will, most likely, never drive.  But I can read more than one sentence at a time.  I am better.  Not completely well, but better.  And with "better" my desire to express myself in images returned.  Mine is a recurrent illness, so I am going to get cooking while the fire is hot.  

I still  have (the same) people to thank:  My parents, givers of both my first (Kodak Instamatic) and second (Canon AE-1) cameras.  La, because her constant energy and curiosity keep me growing.  My sisters, well, because they're awesome, and one of them said "this is so AMAZING" about this site yesterday, and isn't that kind of support that sisters are for?  My two creative and adventurous daughters, absolute gifts.  My husband, who has been lovingly kicking me in the kiester to do this for years.  Love you.

It remains:  Now go.  Look.

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